if i could read the grains of sand
on just one beach
i would know the prayer songs
of sweet salt breezes
the hidden truth of tidepools;
i would know everything & nothing.
asleep on the couch
your dreams flutter
escape to the roof next door;
i wonder if they too watch
the exquisite death of rose petals
falling to the ground.
surrounded by your quiet slumber
i forget the frailty
of this moment & the next;
doors that stick in winter,
the mourning of dahlias
ruined by first frost,
hobbled by the cold
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Published in Green Hills Literary Lantern, Volume XVII (2006)
Photo by Magyber Miranda on Unsplash
it’s far too cold for wandering alone without a coat,
just harsh enough to stay at the window looking out,
hand pressed against the pane.
the streets are full of strangers carrying burdens
no one can guess. there are no replacement parts left;
i see it in their faces.
(some days i don’t fret so much about nuts and bolts,
planned obsolescence; other days this machine
of flesh won’t let me forget.)
once you’ve left the house there’s no turning back.
it doesn’t matter that you have a spare key,
that’s not what will save you.
curl up like a beggar sheltered in the church vestibule,
but leave your faith behind; you’ll find time enough
come morning to believe.
those bruises; they’re not from sleeping on concrete
or fists against skin. you got them from the soft places
where you thought you were safe.
it’s ok to make plans if they ease you, just know:
traffic alerts are meaningless, love is homeopathic
and fear is musky like pheromones.
as long as the bombs land somewhere else, we’re free.
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Semifinalist, New Millennium Writings Contest #18, 2004
Honorable Mention, New Millennium Writings Contest XX, 2006-7
Published in Green Hills Literary Lantern, Volume XVII, 2006
Published in Magee Park Anthology, 2006
Photo by Hasan Almasi on Unsplash
a truncated sestina
cleansed at last of burial ash
you return to tell of angels falling from the sky
the fire where you lost yourself as day turned to night
in brittle madness
streets brushed with unspeakable dust clouds embers
burning the city silent
how your subway car suddenly shuddered silent
the ground above heaving as towers fell to ash.
trapped below, none of you knew. only embers
of wild confusion igniting distrust. even there, with no sky
you tasted the coming madness
humanity’s dark night.
you helped a pregnant woman to the street like night
joined the tide of muffled footsteps, silent
exodus across the bridge toward what? this madness
knows no borders. eyes burning with tears and ash
you walked blind 9am daylight wiped clean from the sky
dawn of a new era hissing like embers.
back turned on a vision once sought, embers
of love swath the night
like neon in the sky
rain down in silent
questions: what was true, what was ash.
on the third anniversary of 9/11
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To be published in Anti-Heroin Chic, February 2021
Photo by Jeffrey Blum on Unsplash
there are only moments now
when illness is forgotten
when the woman i once was
returns to my skin
and a trick of imagination
sees me sprint to the corner
in time for the light
hike the trail up cowles mountain
she is the phantom
this is my grief
this siren in the shadows
teasing dreams of muscles
warm and limber
stretching the truth of expectation
only she knows
how rest comes when sleep will not
how i follow my breath
its circular motion
from the hummingbird’s flight
how i stumble toward grace
offer prayers give thanks
wait for moments rich
• • • •
Published in The Comstock Review, Fall/Winter Awards Issue, 2002
Photo by Mark Olsen on Unsplash
soil still between your fingers, you lead me through the garden. it is early
morning. crisp air and the fragrance of your favorite blooms stir my
senses. we speak in metaphor, seduced by words left to interpretation.
you cut me star lilies and freesia. you want your magic to linger.
i invite you in. find vases. watch the sun play on your hands, now clean,
as you lovingly arrange garden gifts. a bud opens as if delighted to be in
this small upstairs apartment.
you know the face of my passion, trace the fine lines of my longing with fingers
experienced in coaxing flowers to bloom.
content to linger in transitory moments, we play under the arc of laden boughs,
pretend there is permanence in the mere curve of letters, cut flowers, a kiss.
beyond the well-tended beds of your garden, winding paths lead to
the question you turn from. we lose our way. i return home knowing
you will not follow.
upstairs, the star lilies. their fragrant flesh becoming translucent.
soon petals will fall, one by one.
• • • •
Published in New Millennium Writings, Winter 2000-01
Photo by james garland on Unsplash
you’ve entered my life with the ease of a dancer
gliding your way across this set
a breeze creates soft rustle of night leaves
through my heart a song whispers your name
your movements leaps lunges dance of the lover
rhythmic chant of body and earth
a tribute to two moving together
making their own breezes through the air
lie quiet, love you have brought me your gift
i will hum my song
through my dreams beside you i know your own heart
speaking softly its night dance with my own
you go to your weekly life calls us all
what remains with me is a kind of silence
a kind silence resounding in joy
it’s as deep as the sea
as wise as canyons
as old as mountains standing silent majestic knowing
i surrender myself to the knowledge of mountains
(they have survived so much more than i)
and look up to see against the brilliant sunrise
a lone dancer paying tribute to this world
• • • •
Published in Between Sheets, #9,
California State University Stanislaus, 1978
Photo by Marek Piwnicki on Unsplash